On this 12th day of the 12th month of the 2012th year, I Sarah Margaret Power pledge to complete this precious project (that I started almost a year and a half ago) over the next 12 days! Yes friends, all I want for Christmas is to finish what I started. My intent with this new entry was to throw together some corny lines (as I do) and post a few pics documenting my most recent First. Time is ticking. As I'm writing now though, I realize that I'm way too sentimental to fake a no big deal attitude about my final days as a blogger. So, I've decided to complete Fifty2First #9 - "tell someone how I really feel". It's quite fitting as I have 9 more Firsts in the count down before the curtain closes. So here it is folks, I'm telling - you.
A few months before I began this Blog I was in a crumby place. Newly fired, cheated on, homeless (living in a friends basement) and feeling pretty sorry myself. A real hot mess. I wanted to feel valid, but had no idea how. This really pissed me off because I'd always thought life was fairly easy. With time of course, that all went away as I learned and rebuilt (as we do).
So, looking back and looking forward, the most true thing I can tell you is that I feel tender. (A word that makes me think of my friend Andy describing his Sunday hangover - in a good way). That light, vulnerable bounce when everything feels raw and real. I'm tender about my little life and about all the crazy incredible things so much bigger then it. Tender for the people around me and tendered by the guarantee that I'll live through many more hot messes with, without and because of them, but 100% gracious that I get to.
Oops, didn't fully abandon the corniness after all. Anyway, hold tight (but not too tight, I'm tender) as I race through the next 12 days and 8 remaining Firsts. It's the final count down!
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